with love, love me

"what's going on with you?" they say. "nothing much!" dana replies. BUT THERE IS SO MUCH!! GOING! ON! --------------------------------------------------------- a couple things that have been on my mind: CHICAGO 17 DAYS DUDE. & I STILL HAVE A LOT OF PLANNING FRICK LOL. an internship. I should probably get into that honestly. It's not my first priority though. that isn't good lol.  all the people I said I'd hang out w but never got back to :-( bc laziness/needed me-time how I want to watch my hero academia, but the english dubbed version isn't on crunchy roll. and the effort of reading the captions is so time consuming lol wanting to win a KFT contest getting the opportunity to be apart of [PNG] vegas board omg what lol  wanting to be creative, but not knowing what to create :( Celeste's dog Willie is the only dog that likes me  wanting to take so many dance classes, but is already drained of the four times a week that I do ...

I tell to whomever is reading, not to elicit sympathy, but to show that I, like many others struggle with many signs of depression and come across my occasional thoughts as to why I thought living wasn't worth it. now I believe that it is.

odd. I’m finding myself trying to become more invested into your life, at the same time trying to figure out why. How does one distinguish the difference between a genuine friendship and falling for someone? Because I usually like to establish the friendship early on & then think about what our future entails. It's like, I've got a lot of love for you. and the thing is, you do too. but it's not like that. Sadly, my problem is that every time I discover new characteristics about who and what you like, it has made me want to become the person you desire. Although I do take what you say into consideration, I feel like I am trying to change myself in order for you to like me, like me . I promise that I’m not planning to change anytime soon, but I want you to know that I considered it. I know where our friendship stands and I have a feeling that it's going to stay there. You accepting my imperfections was not something I thought would happen, but it did. And you unde...