random letter

hey friend,

I did not get to see you today, but I wish I did. monday’s seem to be rest days, since our weekends always seem so compact with other miscellaneous things. you’re sleeping now (I hope) you deserve it. I also know that you’re never going to see this unless I send you the link. lmao. I never will.

lately I’ve been going through waves of insecurity, just like anyone else. at times I feel nothing can surpass the feeling of sadness. then a moment later, it feels like I never had a reason to be sad in the first place. isn’t that stupid? Lol. It’s like one second it feels like the end of the world and then the next second, I realize the world m o v e s  o n . I’m okay though—I have an amazing support system of people who are willing to pick up my fallen pieces and rebuild me again. for that, I’m so grateful. 

feeling secure and being valued by another person is a wonderful feeling, however I never want to depend on another person to determine my happiness. to me, validation is extremely important and I thank you for consistently being someone who validates my self worth. I never ask for comfort, but thank you for giving it to me anyways. it is important to realize that sometimes a relationship is not always 50/50–sometimes it’s 80/20, 60/40, or 90/10.. some days it is important to add to your partners half so they can become 50/50 again. be there for them when they need it, and the same energy will be reciprocated. simple.

some days are harder than others, but at the end of the day I am delighted to say that I get the chance to love someone like you. thank you for adding to my happiness as well as being a reason behind my happiness. 

I can’t wait till you wake up!! 

sweet dreams friend.