as of lately

Forgetting you has been a chore I never signed up for. Forcing myself to pretend that my feelings for you never existed has been the only chains wrapped around my ankles that constantly drag me down with the consistent thoughts of what could’ve been.

but I will say, although I didn’t ask for this, I understand now. I’ve always understood but now I believe it — it was beautiful and I’m glad it happened. I’m finally used to your absence and one day, I’m gonna think about you for the last time and I’m not even going to realize it. Now, I’m going to care for myself the way I used to care about you; I hope you don’t mind.