to those who care
THANK YOU;
to the one who saw potential in me as a friend and ran with it. for realizing that I am much more than a wallflower. I know I unintentially tend to have a wall up, and that threw you off. but im thankful that you noticed that I have a special attribute about myself. I always knew that becoming your friend was out of luck, and sometimes I’m nervous that the luck is going to wear off. I love all of our snap daily vlogs and I appreciate our pep talks to each other about life. thank you for guiding me through my dance career and supporting my growth. sometimes I feel like I hold myself back with you and im sorry; heavy emphasis on /sometimes\. im not so sure how to fix that bc I don't want you to, idk judge? not too sure that's the word. bc you are a wonderful person. and I don't want to disappoint you. im glad that you value our friendship a lot. I do too. also im glad that we make each other aware of where we are in each others lives bc i think that's important. im scared that when adult adult adult life happens, we'll both become busy/find new people and won't find time for each other. so im appreciating you as much as I can. appreciation feels nice. you are really nice. you are my best acquaintance. I just wish you weren't so far away. that sometimes makes me sad. it'd be nice to just hang out w you to do whatever and whenever. and you'll understand. to me, you are the color blue. you make me feel at ease.
THANK YOU;
to the one who made me feel defeated. it has been a couple years since then, and im happy to say that we've mended, although it did take a while for me. im happy that we can talk and not feel weird about it. well at least I don't. you have said I was funny before and I would like to think that you still think of me like that. when we laugh, it feels reminiscent of memories I tried to forget. because of you, I now know what I want. and I now know that I was soOoOo foolish for wanting something I couldn't have. but im happy to see that you finally have what you want. I always just wanted to wish you the best, even tho I wished it was with me. to me, you're the color dark green. you remind me of greed.
THANK YOU;
to the one who has made me smile a whole hell of a lot more lately. quite honestly, the idea of you makes me nervous. you irl made me nervous. you are very successful and im still getting there. but all I know is that I want to be better because of you. im not too sure where we will end up, but just know that this is the most genuine thing I didn't ask for. aside from this, im surprised you stuck around bc I often think you deserve better. and i don't mean to compare myself to others, but just...ah. i do. plus you've experienced many things in life and im a noob so I don't want to hold you back. I'm sorry but I’m still trying to figure myself out. your potential can go on for miles & im so hyped to see all of your accomplishments. im sorry I feel like you're waiting.. but I promised myself that my life will always be my first priority, and you know that. but watching yours is something I don't mind being distracted by. to me, you are the color orange. you make me feel warm. you are always shining.
THANK YOU;
to the one who has constantly been a reminder as to why I found myself. you serve as the inspiration for a lot of the things I still do. like help sos, fangirling, and mechanical bull riding. when I saw you everyday I was in awe of the friendship we have developed. bc I have never had anything like it. and unlike other people you made me feel unique and didn't make me feel bad or any less than you. you genuinely fucking supported me and was happy for my little accomplishments that I didn't think were of any importance.. but it still was, to you. so remember how I enjoyed filming things? I didn't see the beauty in it, till you told me that you thought that was so unique. and to this day I want you to know that "capturing moments" is something im trying to incorporate into my career. you're so awesome. thank you. I miss you so dearly. it makes me sad bc you used to be a 5 minute drive away. it's been a couple years since you've moved. whenever you're home, I still cherish every single moment i've spent with you. seeing you succeed has contributed to my own happiness. I can't wait to see you do great things for people in need. just like how you did for me. to me, you are the color yellow. you make days brighter.
THANK YOU;
to one who reminds me that im not alone. life has hardships. and I have watched you go through many of them. and suffering together has always remained a constant similarity in our lives. you've taught me that even though life literally sucks, I should not hold back. yolo is and will always be the motto. you are very good at your words--idk why you haven't started screen writing yet. the one thing that has always stuck w me was when you wrote in my yearbook "dana is synonymous with the word beautiful." tears were shed while reading that. I am thankful for our friendship because of your genuine capability to make me feel a lot more worthy than what I think i am. I just wish you can see the same within yourself. i want you to succeed and prove everyone wrong; it's what you at least owe yourself. please know that you don't have to be in the dark alone. to me, you are the color black. like our souls.
THANK YOU;
to the ones who went away. and were okay with it. and I was okay with it. I truly adore the times we did spend together. all of the stalking sessions, park adventures, and concerts. im glad you all found happiness within each other and your similar interests. I know that we truly didn't end off on bad terms. seeing you guys happy together made me happy. and I think that is important to note bc I never wanted you guys to think that I didn't wish you guys the best, because I did. we go way back, you know that. I think I just got tired of the same routine and im sorry. if you ever come across this post, just know that I love you and I know we'll find our way back somehow. we always do. to me, you all are the color red. you're all brave and bold.
THANK YOU;
to the one who always reminds me right from wrong. you have seen me at my lowest and been with me at my highest-(mentally and figuratively lol). you have understood my personal probs, family, & school situations. you out of everyone has seen my growth as a person, even when I don't. I tend to think of us at the same playing field; when one of us succeeds, our appreciation for each other is reciprocated & I love that. sometimes idk what id do without you bc I feel like I depended on you during my teen years. "my comfortability lies around your presence," I would tell myself. remember when I had panic attacks or my introverted self didn't want to enter a room.. maybe that's still a thing.. but honestly I have gotten better. and you've noticed!! and that makes me happy. you actually not forgetting makes me happy!! we may not be dancing together anymore, but I know damn well that that is the one thing that has kept our friendship alive. I feel like I don't tell you enough, but thank you so much for all that you have done for me. I can't wait to make you so fucking proud. to me, you are the color maroon. just like good ol' spaghetti and meatballs.
THANK YOU;
to the one im related to by blood. you see, with you, I think we tend to forget that we only have each other. and yes I know we can both get annoyed of each other's presence 99.9354% of the time, but the .1% is something I'll always hold close to my heart. growing up together, I've came to the realization that you are the sister I never chose to have. I know one day, being held captive in our homes will someday pay off. we're so eager to grow up, but we have to cherish our time w our families while we can. I also feel like I always have to impress you, but sometimes I like to think that you actually think I'm pretty cool and you don't want to admit it. a lot of things disinterest me, but I guess you're someone I care about. to me, you are the color white. you are sincere with your choices. you are my safety nest.
THANK YOU;
to the few who have always been on my side. long term or short term. y'all shaped me to be who I am today. there's many people in my life that have come and go, but it has always been dance. my dance families have always been the people I grew with. my best memories have been with you all. I love the fact that I'll always find my way back to my roots. life passes by so quickly that it is easy to get out of touch. BUT when we do connect, it's like I saw you all yesterday. to me, you all are the color purple and teal. you guys give me spirit.
vulnerability is something I tend to not tap into bc I often have trouble trying to figure out what I want to say and how to say it. and im sorry for writing all this. and im sorry for saying sorry. and im sorry for saying "and." but im learning, I swear.
you all ended up being someone i did not realize I needed in my life till you arrived.
does anyone know the term that kinda goes like "the people you meet on accident are often the ones that are the most important." (???) you all make believe that that's true. you make me appreciate life a little more.
to everyone listed---
"I like myself when I'm with you."
to the one who saw potential in me as a friend and ran with it. for realizing that I am much more than a wallflower. I know I unintentially tend to have a wall up, and that threw you off. but im thankful that you noticed that I have a special attribute about myself. I always knew that becoming your friend was out of luck, and sometimes I’m nervous that the luck is going to wear off. I love all of our snap daily vlogs and I appreciate our pep talks to each other about life. thank you for guiding me through my dance career and supporting my growth. sometimes I feel like I hold myself back with you and im sorry; heavy emphasis on /sometimes\. im not so sure how to fix that bc I don't want you to, idk judge? not too sure that's the word. bc you are a wonderful person. and I don't want to disappoint you. im glad that you value our friendship a lot. I do too. also im glad that we make each other aware of where we are in each others lives bc i think that's important. im scared that when adult adult adult life happens, we'll both become busy/find new people and won't find time for each other. so im appreciating you as much as I can. appreciation feels nice. you are really nice. you are my best acquaintance. I just wish you weren't so far away. that sometimes makes me sad. it'd be nice to just hang out w you to do whatever and whenever. and you'll understand. to me, you are the color blue. you make me feel at ease.
THANK YOU;
to the one who made me feel defeated. it has been a couple years since then, and im happy to say that we've mended, although it did take a while for me. im happy that we can talk and not feel weird about it. well at least I don't. you have said I was funny before and I would like to think that you still think of me like that. when we laugh, it feels reminiscent of memories I tried to forget. because of you, I now know what I want. and I now know that I was soOoOo foolish for wanting something I couldn't have. but im happy to see that you finally have what you want. I always just wanted to wish you the best, even tho I wished it was with me. to me, you're the color dark green. you remind me of greed.
THANK YOU;
to the one who has made me smile a whole hell of a lot more lately. quite honestly, the idea of you makes me nervous. you irl made me nervous. you are very successful and im still getting there. but all I know is that I want to be better because of you. im not too sure where we will end up, but just know that this is the most genuine thing I didn't ask for. aside from this, im surprised you stuck around bc I often think you deserve better. and i don't mean to compare myself to others, but just...ah. i do. plus you've experienced many things in life and im a noob so I don't want to hold you back. I'm sorry but I’m still trying to figure myself out. your potential can go on for miles & im so hyped to see all of your accomplishments. im sorry I feel like you're waiting.. but I promised myself that my life will always be my first priority, and you know that. but watching yours is something I don't mind being distracted by. to me, you are the color orange. you make me feel warm. you are always shining.
THANK YOU;
to the one who has constantly been a reminder as to why I found myself. you serve as the inspiration for a lot of the things I still do. like help sos, fangirling, and mechanical bull riding. when I saw you everyday I was in awe of the friendship we have developed. bc I have never had anything like it. and unlike other people you made me feel unique and didn't make me feel bad or any less than you. you genuinely fucking supported me and was happy for my little accomplishments that I didn't think were of any importance.. but it still was, to you. so remember how I enjoyed filming things? I didn't see the beauty in it, till you told me that you thought that was so unique. and to this day I want you to know that "capturing moments" is something im trying to incorporate into my career. you're so awesome. thank you. I miss you so dearly. it makes me sad bc you used to be a 5 minute drive away. it's been a couple years since you've moved. whenever you're home, I still cherish every single moment i've spent with you. seeing you succeed has contributed to my own happiness. I can't wait to see you do great things for people in need. just like how you did for me. to me, you are the color yellow. you make days brighter.
THANK YOU;
to one who reminds me that im not alone. life has hardships. and I have watched you go through many of them. and suffering together has always remained a constant similarity in our lives. you've taught me that even though life literally sucks, I should not hold back. yolo is and will always be the motto. you are very good at your words--idk why you haven't started screen writing yet. the one thing that has always stuck w me was when you wrote in my yearbook "dana is synonymous with the word beautiful." tears were shed while reading that. I am thankful for our friendship because of your genuine capability to make me feel a lot more worthy than what I think i am. I just wish you can see the same within yourself. i want you to succeed and prove everyone wrong; it's what you at least owe yourself. please know that you don't have to be in the dark alone. to me, you are the color black. like our souls.
THANK YOU;
to the ones who went away. and were okay with it. and I was okay with it. I truly adore the times we did spend together. all of the stalking sessions, park adventures, and concerts. im glad you all found happiness within each other and your similar interests. I know that we truly didn't end off on bad terms. seeing you guys happy together made me happy. and I think that is important to note bc I never wanted you guys to think that I didn't wish you guys the best, because I did. we go way back, you know that. I think I just got tired of the same routine and im sorry. if you ever come across this post, just know that I love you and I know we'll find our way back somehow. we always do. to me, you all are the color red. you're all brave and bold.
THANK YOU;
to the one who always reminds me right from wrong. you have seen me at my lowest and been with me at my highest-(mentally and figuratively lol). you have understood my personal probs, family, & school situations. you out of everyone has seen my growth as a person, even when I don't. I tend to think of us at the same playing field; when one of us succeeds, our appreciation for each other is reciprocated & I love that. sometimes idk what id do without you bc I feel like I depended on you during my teen years. "my comfortability lies around your presence," I would tell myself. remember when I had panic attacks or my introverted self didn't want to enter a room.. maybe that's still a thing.. but honestly I have gotten better. and you've noticed!! and that makes me happy. you actually not forgetting makes me happy!! we may not be dancing together anymore, but I know damn well that that is the one thing that has kept our friendship alive. I feel like I don't tell you enough, but thank you so much for all that you have done for me. I can't wait to make you so fucking proud. to me, you are the color maroon. just like good ol' spaghetti and meatballs.
THANK YOU;
to the one im related to by blood. you see, with you, I think we tend to forget that we only have each other. and yes I know we can both get annoyed of each other's presence 99.9354% of the time, but the .1% is something I'll always hold close to my heart. growing up together, I've came to the realization that you are the sister I never chose to have. I know one day, being held captive in our homes will someday pay off. we're so eager to grow up, but we have to cherish our time w our families while we can. I also feel like I always have to impress you, but sometimes I like to think that you actually think I'm pretty cool and you don't want to admit it. a lot of things disinterest me, but I guess you're someone I care about. to me, you are the color white. you are sincere with your choices. you are my safety nest.
THANK YOU;
to the few who have always been on my side. long term or short term. y'all shaped me to be who I am today. there's many people in my life that have come and go, but it has always been dance. my dance families have always been the people I grew with. my best memories have been with you all. I love the fact that I'll always find my way back to my roots. life passes by so quickly that it is easy to get out of touch. BUT when we do connect, it's like I saw you all yesterday. to me, you all are the color purple and teal. you guys give me spirit.
vulnerability is something I tend to not tap into bc I often have trouble trying to figure out what I want to say and how to say it. and im sorry for writing all this. and im sorry for saying sorry. and im sorry for saying "and." but im learning, I swear.
you all ended up being someone i did not realize I needed in my life till you arrived.
does anyone know the term that kinda goes like "the people you meet on accident are often the ones that are the most important." (???) you all make believe that that's true. you make me appreciate life a little more.
to everyone listed---
"I like myself when I'm with you."
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